Heart Sandtrap
by HeadCase on Jun.25, 2008, under Relationship
The more you struggle the more that sand pit of suspicion, doubt and jealousy will eat you up, where your reason and clarity will quickly be devoured by the hungry belly of acceptance. You’re in so deep you justify every intention, waiting for the sun to shine… but little do you know; only the cold lonely rain will wash it all away. Is it wishful thinking or denial? How do you know when your eyes have been tainted with so much and your mind enveloped by your heart? I know how you feel, I can imagine how it is to be caught in your own web of deception to hold together this fragile state you are in with barely visible threads that could be broken by a gentle breeze. I cannot blame you for the way you are, your heart is no longer yours for how can you think for yourself when you are only thinking for him/her? It may all appear crystal clear to me because I stand and watch on the outside thru this looking glass, how do I reflect this upon you? Detachment helps us to see clearly, but love will keep you alive… I guess we’ll leave it up again to the sands of time to unveil everything to you. In the fire of love, hate, deception, jealousy, and pain… the sand will heat into a mirror where only your reflections prevails and you will see that all the happiness and pain stems from the person you see in that reflection. So how do you want to feel?
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July 11th, 2008 on 12:57 am
Hello nice writing, nice blog, Continue with it. Take care. Add me at friendstar…?
July 11th, 2008 on 11:59 pm
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July 12th, 2008 on 5:16 am
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July 18th, 2008 on 8:39 pm
I can relate to this..I am trap in my own sandtrap…I’m struling to get out of it, but what cani do..pain and heartaches makes me stronger..
August 4th, 2008 on 2:37 am
I know you will not understand this but this is how I want to express my thoughts…
Ito na yung pangalawang beses na nagbasa ako ng blog mo… magkaibang topic pero iisa lang ang tanong na iniwan mo sa isip ko… “Paano kaya magmahal si Casey?”
August 4th, 2008 on 5:53 am
hi…ganda ng blog mu inspiring…esp. ung unrequitted love it made me realized something…you unconciously helped me..so thank you..
August 5th, 2008 on 9:20 am
hi,there.i dunno u.but i accidently read ur article.it’s very inspiring,though i spent much time 2 comprehend it.anyway,i jus drop by here 2 tell u,u hav a great mind.
August 21st, 2008 on 3:39 pm
Your level of relationship maturity is quite getting up, hehe. Good! Actually, it’s easy for us to say their flaws on love & relationship to somebody else. What best could we offer is just being there for them.
This love & relationship thing makes us miserable sometimes. And being miserable is interesting, it sometimes brings the best in you, hehe. Just always have a friend or someone you can always count on in times like this in your life. WE cannot tackle it alone & remember we are NOT always alone to be feeling miserable.
October 16th, 2008 on 11:29 pm
can you write something about TRUST?? i just want to know your view on that..
November 10th, 2008 on 3:15 pm
whoa,
i wonder wat wud be d most appropriate words of praise to grant you…
ur one of my admired bloggers…
cool! keep it up!!!
November 4th, 2009 on 3:44 pm
I was reviewing your posts and I came across this comment. I now share the same interest with the answer for the posted question.
Here it is:
“I know you will not understand this but this is how I want to express my thoughts…
Ito na yung pangalawang beses na nagbasa ako ng blog mo… magkaibang topic pero iisa lang ang tanong na iniwan mo sa isip ko… “Pano kaya magmahal si Casey?”
-Jenah August 4th, 2008
Would mind sharing us your response on this? I’m sure lots of your readers are also interested to know the answer for it.
November 5th, 2009 on 12:57 pm
Nagenarc,
Can you translate that to english for me?
November 5th, 2009 on 2:51 pm
Jenah says ” This is the second time that I come to read your blog… different topic, but there’s only a single question that you have left in my mind… “How does Casey do when he’s in love”? (or something like “How does Casey shows his love to someone”)
… not sure how to translate that last sentence but the main thought about is how do you love.
November 5th, 2009 on 2:59 pm
Tough question, I’d be waiting for your answer.
November 5th, 2009 on 5:53 pm
wow, that is a tough questions! haha.
How does Casey do when he’s in love?
One thing is for sure, there are lots of hits and misses when I’m in love (am sure its universal for many). I will admit, I get in and out of infatuation rather easily sometimes, thats why all of my relationships that lasted for years are based on friendship first. and even after breaking up somehow we managed to stay as close friends and keep in touch until today. For me, true love is the feeling and act of loving someone genuinely whether she is with you or not.
When I’m in a relationship:-
I’m honest (sometimes brutally honest and without tact, especially when drunk)
I trust completely and am almost never jealous (about 99% of the time)
I treat my partner as an equal. if i can do it, so can she, because i believe in freedom to be who we are.
I’m patient and would like her to be as patient with me, mainly because i have a bad sense of time. hehe
I show my love not (only) by buying gifts but by being thoughtful. ie, a nice home cooked dinner with wine, a good massage after a long day at work, etc.
I require time for myself and friends (like most ppl) and hopes that she does too. Seeing each other 24/7 and nobody else is a recipe for boredome eventually if both are experiencing the same thing everyday together. I’d prefer to share our different experiences and discuss the different point of views, its much more engaging.
and the list goes on, but i think this is more or less what i’m like in a relationship or in love. Hope this is satisfactory? =p
November 5th, 2009 on 6:10 pm
Well said. Gosh! You seemed like an ideal man, how come you’re still single? lol
November 5th, 2009 on 7:04 pm
lol I am far from an ideal man Nagenarc, but thank you for the kind compliment. Actually, I had just gotten out of a 3 year relationship recently, that is why i’m single now.
But to say the least, an ideal partner is someone very hard to find… however, we only live once, i don’t think anyone should settle for anything less so the search continues… =)
November 7th, 2009 on 2:17 pm
Have gotten out from a 3-year relationship?… You must be having difficult times nowadays.
Eternal Vigilance and Cruel Intentions must have something to do with the aftermath of your break up?
November 7th, 2009 on 3:39 pm
Nagenarc, quite possibly. =)
November 8th, 2009 on 8:13 pm
“Seeing each other 24/7 and nobody else is a recipe for boredome eventually if both are experiencing the same thing everyday together.”- I agree to this 101%