Disenchanted
by HeadCase on Jul.17, 2006, under Philosophical
Look away… there’s nothing left here. I lack the strength to feel, let alone act. I can’t explain to you how tiring it is to pretend that i care anymore, or that i feel anything. This living has sucked the life out of me, and like an empty shell, all that echoes back to you these days are automated responses. Press 1 for english… What happened to me? i don’t know… i think i’ve been stumped from a series of my questions and now i lack direction and motivation because i don’t know where i’m going nor how to get there. When the illusion of purpose dissipates into a slippery answer, one that has no grasp and no definition… how do you move to the next stage of events. I would will a calling to come along, but i’m in no position to answer any calls… for i’ve been shackled once more in the slave chains of society. I want… need something, someone to distract me from me. If you look but only outwards, theres a tendency to be another shalllow sheep and if you look only inwards internally, there is a likelihood to ignore the world outside and create your own, in simplified terms… madness. The madman says "i’m not crazy, you’re all crazy". Its strange, but i think i’m starting to believe him. So with all my half witted answers, i have no yellow brick road back to kansas. While, the lion lacked courage, the tinman was missing a heart, and i can’t remember what the scarecrow didn’t have but i think Dorothy doesn’t exist. So click your heels 3 times and say: "Theres no place like home coz we’re lost in it." Or maybe we are home, but we just can’t see it.
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July 23rd, 2006 on 8:30 pm
yahh kpgod life sometyms…
kamukha u c rain…
July 23rd, 2006 on 10:16 pm
Just keep on holding to HIM and everything will be alright…just always believe…
July 23rd, 2006 on 10:27 pm
exactly how I feel (is this possible with infinite combination of neurons?) during PMS episodes….
then you wake up after a few days wanting to bang your head against the wall for wasting time….
oh, just go on, friend; feel it, wring and squeeze these demons out the best you could…
July 23rd, 2006 on 11:22 pm
I don’t know what had happened to u.
I can’t understand, why do u have to pretend on something?
I think every people will fell the same feeling like what u felt somehow.
But the point is, what can we do to beat “the living that suck our life” (like what u said) ??
Wake up bro.. !!!! Don’t let ur living suck ur life anymore.
Each of us only live once.
Do something worth for the living while the sunrise still in u.
Coz.., when the sunset comes to ur life, there is nothing u can do but regretting ur life n be laugh by “the living that had sucked ur life”.
July 24th, 2006 on 1:32 am
sometimes i do feeling that way, emptiness is always around..but now i won’t be sad person any more..GOD bless me with this life,all the things that happend on us is a bless..all tears,all smiles,created to make our journey colorfull.. ( good blog keep writing pal )
July 24th, 2006 on 1:41 am
Guys, i’m not sad. Its just a moment in my brain barf.. don’t worry i’m not gonna hang myself just yet. Too many places i want to visit, but thanks for caring nonetheless hehe
July 24th, 2006 on 1:50 am
Dear Casey,
I’m touched by your blog. I’m faced the same problem like what you have written in the blog. I have surrender my life unto Him and found myself after knowing Him-He is the great Man in the World. He is My Precious Sacrifices’ Jesus Christ. I dono what is your position is. But just want to tell you, if you have any problem, just open your heart and talk with Him…you’ll find the Answer. Is Free. No harm to try.
Can you be my friend? If yes, then send me your email address to my NonFriendster email address at akane_my@yahoo.com.sg. Then i’ll add you. To avoid “Junk” People.
Sorry to say that.
That’s all.
May the LORD bless you abundantly.
Shalom!
Michelle
July 24th, 2006 on 11:03 am
Great writing.
“Make sure you’re not missing the point of your life.”
Highly recommend the book “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. As an outsider, you don’t have to pay attention to me. But. Nothing to lose. Cheers.
July 24th, 2006 on 4:53 pm
hmmm… it’s nice. i think, what you need is love. Love answers everything. believe me. (tet220@lycos.com)
July 25th, 2006 on 6:05 am
ARR..
July 25th, 2006 on 7:54 am
i just want to say dat life is beautiful just trust your self ok,,,haja,,,and one thing put god in your life and yoy will see the joy!!!!
July 25th, 2006 on 11:48 pm
Bitterly beautiful written….
July 26th, 2006 on 6:46 am
>>>When we were brought up in this wonderful world of ours, we have no idea on what we are up to. As much as we wanted to. But as a mere baby, we were raised and fed by our very kind and loving parents. And for that we must be thankful. They have devoted their time and effort changing our clothes, washing us and prepare milk for us to survive and to live healthy. They have done their best to give us everything we need as much as they can.
>>>As we grow older, we made our way making progress to different sort of things. We learn different kinds of words and we learn to sing do-re-mi’s. We have learned to play with our fellow cousins with our same age. And then there was school. At school, the teacher has served to be our second parents. They taught us all they know and they teach us the proper manners to become a good citizens. And gave us a good motivation for us to be more prepared for the life ahead of us.
>>>As we walk through our daily lives, we have met some personalities that lead us to the right way. Be it a friend, a teacher, our parents, our superiors at work, book authors, artists, subordinates, some acquantances and some that we just met while we were walking along the road. These persons are a great help and we should be thankful that we have met them. They are the ones who have made us, and put us to where we are right now. Without them, we can do little and we can know little about the facts of life.
>>>But the greatest guide that I’ve known so far is none other that the Lord Himself. Without Him, we are nothing and we can do nothing. He is the one who has lighted our ways and made a path to lead us to a fine and better future. As for wisdom, we may only know that all we have have come from Him.
Do you want to have a wonderful life ahead? Then you must know the guide that will lead you.
July 26th, 2006 on 8:51 pm
Thanks for inspiring — I do feel sometimes lost, lack of strenght, no direction for a place I wish to go …. I want to be truth — n share it to all — but I got stuck — keep on moving forward, hi there buddy!!
July 26th, 2006 on 9:31 pm
This is a lyric i wrote a few years ago:
title: I WISH
I was born…by means.
It was sworn…by Him.
He was worn…”why be me?..”
Have we grown? Haven’t we..
thoughts rolling over,
Like a thunder in my brain..
Heights going lower,
I’m not scared cuz I’m the same
Don’t wanna be another man
I wouldn’t wanna be another me
I distrust…my deeds
I was worn by this
How we’ve grown, haven’t we
Here we go…again…
thoughts rolling over
I’m a thunder with my brain
I got off cradle, I’m a fiend
I got them break
Don’t wanna be another man
I don’t wanna be another me as…
a two in one
I’m full as one
Two as one
To belong…
July 26th, 2006 on 10:07 pm
Is this person an escapist from the mental world?? Don’t understand a fuck of what u wrote! Life should be simple, u just wanna the complicated one.
July 27th, 2006 on 3:12 am
cool.,.
July 27th, 2006 on 4:25 am
nice work…it made me think a moment (“,)
July 27th, 2006 on 5:38 am
everyne has already said wow.. you are touching..you’re blog speaks loud for you.. man, i don’t know how you are gonna appreciate this comment with what everyone has already said. you’ve got the palm lines of a writer. wish i could write like you do.. keep up!
July 27th, 2006 on 6:58 pm
this is one of the greatest blogs ive ever read.. i really like the way it was written. i felt there’s a part of me that somewhat changed… i dont know how.. i dont know why.. you got me on it..
July 27th, 2006 on 8:48 pm
I’m a stranger to you, but I read your blog. Sometimes, life is difficult and there’s always hopes and fears. But have faith, there’s always light at the end of the tunnel. I always remind myself that epecially in times of extreme sadness.
July 27th, 2006 on 9:20 pm
galing ah..whaa a nice shot..why dont you view us more
July 28th, 2006 on 2:15 am
elow!…i saw ur pic and i gues ur alcoholic person,drink moderately..ok… godless…take cares always!…
July 28th, 2006 on 7:15 am
what is all these pain stuff?real pain is unfeelable.
July 28th, 2006 on 10:01 am
can i add u?
?
July 28th, 2006 on 6:04 pm
hai…how do you do???
July 28th, 2006 on 11:28 pm
You do have a different level of consciousness.But you see life differently. It’s actually a beautiful world out there. You just have to focus yourself with the good things that happen around u everyday. Try to appreciate everyday that the sun rises. Call some1 important to you. We are driven to live because of the people we share it with. Life is amazingly beautiful. I don’t see it difficult but rather a challenging journey. Always have a positive outlook. We make choices and sometimes those choices are not that important…It’s the ride that matters. Enjoy your life. Savor it. Sieze the day! I wish you joy…prosperity and abundance!
July 29th, 2006 on 11:14 am
what the fuck are you talking about
July 29th, 2006 on 5:01 pm
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July 30th, 2006 on 6:23 pm
its ideal to say life is beautiful or there are good things out there that awaits you, you just have to make the right decision, for what you are now are the results of what you choose in the past… i guess its hard for people to accept the real things, that’s why they created ideal ones to give hope. i was moved by your blog, it made me sad but somehow i felt something that i can’t explain…
July 30th, 2006 on 6:32 pm
hello!
feel the same way you do.
what a boring and tiresome living it could be when you have finally lost the battle years ago.
when everything seems to be blurred and you’re in the middle of chaos..
July 30th, 2006 on 9:10 pm
hi,i liked the way u played with words…its kinda cool thu it epresses lots of pain nd bitterness.i was touched nd admiring you at the same time…you r blessed with talent dude so dont juz waste it whining..cheer up nd count your blessings.life has lots to offer..juz take one at a time..u’ll never be lost coz God is workin overtime juz 2 guide you.KIP GOIN!
July 31st, 2006 on 12:06 am
jay clark jason_pogi72@yahoo.com
July 31st, 2006 on 12:24 am
hi… how are you? can i add u?
July 31st, 2006 on 3:06 am
hey! what`s up?
we`re here to be with you if u need too… hope u`re ok always! GOD is always with us… have a nice day!
July 31st, 2006 on 5:23 pm
hi i just wanted to be your friend,can i be?
July 31st, 2006 on 5:24 pm
my name is marie saint,21 years of age,…hope to know you better
July 31st, 2006 on 10:58 pm
You are home, but it seems empty to you… Were you to fill it, but have not the will. Were you to have the will, but will not to a will.
Great writing, hope to see more, if you have the inclination.
One great thing to maybe distract yourself with, is humour. Humans are funny, when we struggle with subsistence, we complain but fight to the death.
When we don’t have to struggle with subsistence, we lose sight of purpose. Does that mean that we’re essentially empty shells?
August 1st, 2006 on 12:20 am
Am glad you’re still there ! Life is too short to be so negative and as you say “live it up” whilst you can.
Good writing though.
August 1st, 2006 on 7:44 pm
Hi,
Life really sucks sometimes, well can be most of the time but you have to get over with it bravely,I mean whatever issues in your life.Many comes and goes off by advising but at the end you the one who is facing it all and all depends on how strong you are.Deep down I guess you should be a strong person and I hope you give some time and move along with the flow and when you succeed, you will value highly all your bitter expriences cause lessons are taught and u learnt and improved.Don`t bother about those who hurt you,seriously.I felt the pain in your writing and I`ll pray all your anguish will vanish soon.Take care.
August 1st, 2006 on 8:28 pm
HELLER 2 everyrone……
August 2nd, 2006 on 12:04 am
I like de way u express urself…hope u will find happiness and purpose in ur life soon. God bless…..
August 2nd, 2006 on 6:12 pm
I do appreciate ur blog..coz u know what inm on that stage now!and i dont know what options in life should i choose nor pick!Just go!go!go!go! what makes u happy!
August 2nd, 2006 on 7:35 pm
nice.. ds s my url:
August 2nd, 2006 on 10:01 pm
you’re not alone..god is with u always!
August 2nd, 2006 on 11:49 pm
hi!!! i liked your way of freedom of expressions!!! its very nice and i know someday you’ll find your own happiness in life, the one destined to you and if not now u dont have to worry because you’ll never be alone Im pretty sure that life really sucks sometimes BUT HEY!!!! you have to go on and bring the best for life…… (‘o’) GOD is always there NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!! Believe me its TRUE!!! —–trisha_dice@yahoo.com
August 4th, 2006 on 7:39 am
expressing one’s self through writing is like seing yourself in the mirror and making emotions that you want to do, you just write down what you feel, not just to write what you want, just continue to know yourself, and always remember your not alone in the dark, their is always a someone in the light,thank you for the inspiration……
red_ashtig_0-7@yahoo.com
March 20th, 2007 on 2:05 pm
casey, you need a glass or more of hard wine or whatever in order for you to wake up coz i think your in deep sleep, hehe. or you’re just half asleep & don’t want to get up & your mind is teasing you again.