Chronicles of a HeadCase

I’m sitting in my office eating a burger from the deli across the street. pretty good. I miss the ‘Ramli’ burgers from back in KL, the best burgers in the world if you ask me. I found some people from my secondary school in Friendster today… I was suprised I remember their faces. Most of em’ seem to be doing pretty well. I started thinking about how I was back then.. must have been around 15-17. haha, I was this 5′3 short dork that looked at least 3 years younger than anyone in my form. Never would have imagined the way I turned out.

News Flash – the Pope just lost conciousness. Hope the old man has a peaceful passing.

Still, the wheel will continue spinning while I sit here contemplating the death and rebirth of my mind. I had gone through such drastic change of masks as I was growing up. From the dirty kid that never did his homework and was always sleeping in class (primary school) to the short loser that got bullied every now and then (secondary school), and then to a hippie, dressed like a beach bum and strumming on my six string sitting at the ‘ADP corner and exit 11′ (HELP Institute). Then a sudden change to this alcoholic kid who hung out at the club in the VIP area (thanks to my rich friends) and knew a million people (Still in HELP, but at this point, life was getting repetitive, same conversations, same bottles of alcohol, same shiet, same dramaz). Not long after, I was in Nebraska, a clean slate and fresh start. But still ended up this alcoholic, and social rock star wannabe animal in Lincoln, partying my yellow belly off, lol. Then there was a period of substances, lasted about 3 months. Graduated, drunk or hungover… so messed up, i couldn’t tell the difference. Now I find myself in Florida, in grad school (wtf?!) and a great career, VP Mrkt at an investment company???? how the fuck did that happen??!! When I was a kid, they told me, to be successful you have to study hard, work hard, and live a straight life. Well, I think I got 1 out of 3, I lived a straight life but I am guessing that ‘Straight Life’ does not refer to my sexual orientation. hahaha. oh well, I can’t be complaining, I got lied to… no big deal, happens all the time.

Its a good thing I disregarded everything I was told or taught and figured things out by myself. You figure out so much more in life when you you analyze it with no preset beliefs. The window is vivid if its clear and the mirror reflects better with no smudges.

Moral of the blog? Use windex and life will make more sense.